I have been so frustrated!!!

Angry!

Bitter!

Disgusted! 

Hard hearted!! 

over this house journey. 

-It’s supposed to be fun… (i thought?)

-A magical dreamy experience to create a home of my dreams! (ha) 

-Shiny new house = no imperfections (surely??)

Maybe a fun, dreamy, & perfect house building experience exists…but that isn’t what The Man Upstairs had in store for me😅

What we thought would be a year turned into going on three.

What I thought would be “pick whatever you dream” turned into “the price of what you’re dreaming will put us over budget, so no.”

What I hoped would be new & perfect turned into cracks, gaps, scrapes, scuffs, mess, mold, mildew, off centered lights, doors I didn’t want, outlets & openings where I didn’t want them (the list goes on). 

I tried to “control” this for a while, requesting things to be redone (& some things have been fixed to my liking) but the list is getting longer & my heart is getting harder with every added “imperfection”. 

Here’s my silver lining & the truth of the matter-

I spent some time in prayer this morning & accepted God’s invitation to learn & grow. I held out my frustration to Him & accepted what He wanted to teach me.

This is what He placed on my heart:

He said, “Let go of every ‘imperfection’ on your ‘fix list’ in this new house & leave them be. Do not fix them.”

He reminded me, “The house is what I have willed it to be. Those ‘imperfections’ are a reminder that My Kingdom hasn’t come to completion yet. A reminder to keep your heart on Jesus who will soon return to bring My Kingdom fully & make all things new & ‘perfect’ & ‘to your standards’😅 (& even beyond your standards).”

He also pressed on my heart, “Don’t hold any anger toward anyone who has had a hand in your perceived ‘imperfections,’ but rather admire the work of their hands & extend gratitude.”

Nothing in this fallen world is perfect. But perfection is coming! It is on its way & I hope whoever reads these words will let the imperfections in their own life serve as reminders of this Truth & encourage you onward with a believing heart turned toward the only perfect thing this world has ever seen: Jesus 💛

in love,

kortney sue